Kata Mama, Itu Jodoh

Today is my friend's wedding but I didn't go.
Why? I'll tell you later.

Honestly, I have a personal issue with the bridegroom. I hate to say this. Erm..he divorced the first wife to marry the new woman. They (first wife) were married for approximately one year.
The new wife is my friend and we used to be close.

So I kinda have this uneasy feeling towards him.
I know I don't have the rights to feel so but somehow he gave a little impact to my life. Nevermind, it was an old and long story.

So today I told my mom that I'm supposed to attend a wedding.
I told her the story behind of the marriage too.
It's a lesson learnt I guess, not to tell mom their bad stories.
So my mom said it's jodoh.

I can hardly accept it.
It's that jodoh? We build our happiness upon another person's tears?
Please, it's hard for me to accept this.

All I know is the first wife deserves a better husband.
Also, I don't mind if he wants to have two wives.
Don't get me wrong, I didn't mean that it's also applicable to me.
Hehe..selfish but sorry, saya tak layak nak share my husband.
Tak layak mungkin sebab saya tak cukup bagus. Nak jadi first wife, lagi lah tiada bakat.
To be the one and only wife, insyaAllah saya boleh:)

Ok, back to the topic.
Whatever it is, I pray for the first wife's happiness.
So I shall put a fullstop to the story.

The reason I didn't go to the wedding?
I had no transport and my sister went back to KL today so yeah, I need to see them before they leave.

Ok people, bed is calling me. Ta. ta.

Jodoh lagi..

Eh you all, saya tak jadi tidur lagi. My sleeping time is delayed for...er..maybe 1 hour? Suddenly tangan or more specifically jari-jariku gatal nak menaip lagi. Hehe. Jangan mare na.
Anyways, talking about jodoh I remember a novel I have known.
Pernah baca Tunggu Teduh Dulu (TTD) by Faisal Tehrani?
People, for the time being sila abaikan dulu isu hangat Faisal Tehrani tu. Mari fokus kepada hasil tulisannya dalam TTD.
Buku tu saya baca kira-kira 8 tahun dulu. Lama kan?
Jalan cerita menarik, sungguh indah disusun kisah bagaimana seseorang itu bertemu jodohnya.
Subhanallah, kagum sampai sekarang.
Paling utama, saya masih ingat quotes favourite dalam novel tu..
"Kerja Tuhan siapa tahu".
"Hidup ini penuh dengan rahsia Allah yang perlu kita kutip."

Memang hidup ni banyak misterinya. Tak, saya bukan nak cerita misteri2 dalam hidup saya. Hehe.
In terms of jodoh again, cumanya kadang-kadang saya terfikir apa pula misteri dalam hidup yang perlu saya ungkai lepas ni.
Sepanjang saya kenal dengan Encik Sayang, alhamdulillah semua flow itu smooth belaka.
Benar, sejak dari mula kenal. Sejak kami mula jadi serius.
Not to mention, rezeki mudah datang, semua rasa mudah.

Ok, cukup cerita saya dan dia setakat tu. Tak boleh lebih2. Hehe.

Saya fikir kadang-kadang bila bercerita bab jodoh ni, macam-macam cerita menarik saya jumpa.
Rata-rata yg pernah gagal tengah jalan akan temui orang yg lebih baik. Sungguh, percayalah Allah ada plan yg lebih baik untuk kita.

Saya juga pernah gagal, tapi tetap bangun semula.
Itu semua hanya chapter kecil dalam hidup.
Mungkin sesi pembelajaran tak rasmi untuk mengurus hidup, untuk belajar bangun semula bila jatuh, untuk belajar mengenal diri sendiri, untuk belajar untuk jadi makin bagus di masa depan, untuk belajar menghargai apa jua untuk kita di masa depan.

Eh terpanjang pulak.

Last but not least, saya doakan awak awak semua bahagia selalu ok.
Tolong doakan saya juga ok. thanks :)

Goodnite all :)